National Selfie Day!

Since it’s national selfie day! Woop woop šŸ¤³šŸ½Also, I’m reppin’ one of my favorite bands of all time, Deftones!šŸ¤ŸšŸ½šŸ˜Ž

Quick story about them: I went through a bad phase in life a long time ago and well, I won’t dive into that now but for a while I couldn’t even listen to them because it brought back such bad memories but now I listen to them ALL THE TIME. No bad memories here šŸ™…šŸ»ā€ā™€ļø just lessons learned. Anyway, I enjoy listening to them soooo much more now and I’ve seen them three times. I’m hoping to see them this year outside of Florida. It’s on the Bucket list.

We shall see!

So Back to the selfie post:

I used to take more selfies, well when I was like in my 20s. Now I’m like meh…people know I how I look and I think I’m cute. I don’t take selfies to remind myself, I just look in the mirror and say “you da bomb” and do a little dance šŸ’£šŸ’„šŸ’ƒšŸ¼ honestly, I feel weird when I watch someone take a selfie. Is that strange? Like “eww do I look like a dumbass when I take one or is it just normal now?”

Hmmm šŸ¤”

Random thoughts here… don’t mind me!

Happy thirstyThursday loves!

“Forgetting is a natural element, but forgiveness is a choice”

ā€œIā€™ve forgotten all the reasons I loved you, ā€™till someone tells me that you rang. The memories are hazy now. I donā€™t recall at all. Thereā€™s nothing. Thereā€™s nothing there, just me. And I donā€™t understand why.ā€ ~Phil Collins Iā€™ve forgotten so many things over the course of my 41 years of life on thisĀ [ā€¦]

via Forgive or Forget? ā€” Sam’s Online Journal

The Things People Say…

In A Messy World

They tell you to be brave and strong; To walk with confidence and with your head held high;They tell you be fierce and kick ass;To be smart and powerful;Yet gentle and elegant. They tell you to smash goals and ā€œhang in there!ā€; To wear this smile with pride and donā€™t let it slip;

What they donā€™t tell youā€¦

Is to simply beā€¦
Exactly as you are.

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Self-Help. Self-Love.

Last year I shared with you that I had been going through a difficult time in my life dealing with my depression and trying to understand my purpose in life. To be honest, everyday is a struggle because I can be pessimistic and vague. I stay in relationships that hurt me, I keep people close to me who are selfish, and I am guilty of giving people more chances than they deserve.

I do it because I love hard and that’s okay but I’m forgetting to take care of myself.

Self-help books. Buy them, rent them, download them, don’t be ashamed to walk to that section of the library, they help if you trust them. They have made me realize that I am a very flawed and tainted individual but hey, aren’t we all? I am not ashamed of who I am and who I am becoming.

Self-help books have taught me about self-love. Reflecting on the good and the bad, the lessons and the blessings, the highs and the lows, and just accepting everything as they are. You can only control so much, so why not worry about what you have control over?

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DIY photography “wood” board

As I was walking into my local Whole Foods the other day I noticed a store next door called Hobby Lobby. I thought to myself “aww how nice, they are finally making stores for men” haha..WRONG! The temptation to a shopĀ is EVERYWHERE! It’s no wonder why women are shopaholics, temptation looks us in the eyes every timeĀ we walk into a Tarjay. I guess some or even most women are just natural spenders. I, for one am not going to sugar coat it, I work to spend. I can’t even tell you how many promises I have made to myself to not shop and I just break them every time. I tried giving itĀ up for Lent…yea, no success.

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Fear.

“Fear is not a trivial matter. In many ways, it restricts our lives; it imprisons us.”

So I have been a little M.I.A., been fighting some big assĀ demons. lol. I just want to talk about something I think that we all face – knowingly or not. Maybe you don’t always feel it but when you do, you don’t know what to do. It causes anxiety, stress, heartache…and you know what it’s a real bitch. Constantly stopping youĀ from what you want to do or pursue and to be honest, I never thought that I would be the person to even own up to this but I will, fear, it has stopped me from living my life to the fullest.

I have a huge fear of letting people down and/or disappointing them.

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Copy Cat Strawberry Poppyseed & Chicken

I don’t know if y’allĀ have been to Panera Bread to check out theirĀ summer menu yet but it’s pretty goodĀ and really refreshing. IĀ love summer and nothing is more satisfyingĀ on a hot day than an ice cold beerĀ but of course we can’t always have beer especially when areĀ at work. I decided to make a copy cat of one of their salads, it doesn’t contain everything but you definitely can get playful with it,Ā adding what you like and taking out what you don’t like.

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I never tried fruit in salad and to be honest the thought of it just weirdedĀ me out for some reason that was until I walked into to Panera Bread and discovered thatĀ they were no longer going to carry my favorite salad, Asian Sesame Chicken Salad (tear). I was sad and kind of forced to try something new and that’s whenĀ Strawberry Poppyseed & ChickenĀ Salad came into my life. Ā IT WAS DELISH! I had to order it without the toasted pecans as I’ve developedĀ nut allergies thru the years, which kind of sucks ’causeĀ I’m sure theĀ pecans give it that extra texture.

Anyway I went grocery shopping a few days after having that salad and it was on my mind, I had to replicate it if not at least something pretty close! So I bought the ingredients Panera Bread had listed on their website, IĀ opted out on blueberries, pineapples and of course the pecans.Ā The poppyseed dressing on the salad is amazing, light subtle and flavorful. I knew that I wanted to make a poppyseed dressing from scratch but tell me why it was impossible for me to find poppyseeds?! I mayĀ have to go to wholefoods or even order them online butĀ I found out that Panera Bread started to sell their own dressing which is available at your local supermarket in the produce sectionĀ and even atĀ Target. Score!

When I got home, I lightly seasoned some chicken breasts and popped them in the oven and as soon as they cooled I putĀ them in theĀ refrigerator so that the next day they would be nice and chilled for the salad.

Lets get this salad assembled…what you need:

  • Chicken Breast, cooked & diced
  • Romaine lettuce
  • Strawberries, sliced
  • Mandarin Oranges, Del MonteĀ 
  • Crispy wantons strips
  • Poppyseed dressing

Add as little or as much as you want, ultimately you know what will satisfy you.Ā I’mĀ going to be honest, I NEVER measure anything when I cook or in this case assemble. I do measure when I bake and that’s really the only time. I guess I just learn and do taste tests as I go.

Let me know what you think and definitely try the salad, if not at home at least at Panera Bread!

**Panera Breads’ ingredients, per their website:Ā Chicken raised without antibiotics and romaine tossed with fat-free poppyseed dressing and topped with fresh strawberries, blueberries and pineapple, mandarin oranges and toasted pecan pieces

 

Chicken and Vegetable Lasagna

Back in my younger days when I was workingĀ as a cashier at Winn-Dixie Grocery Stores you’d find me either eating or always wanting to eat. I went from being a carnivoreĀ to a vegetarian to a vegan and well, right back to a carnivorous creature. I never understood why I went through suchĀ phases but I did. Might I mention, you feel so clean and refreshed as a vegetarian but even more so as a vegan. It’s difficult being vegan though, reading labels, not knowing what are in other people’s recipes, it’s tough stuff but if you are dedicated and don’t crave the animal products you are good. Honestly, these days I couldn’t be vegan, the lack of Ā protein from eggs and meats, I just can’t. I LOVE eggs, to the moon and back. Any style, any way, I love love love eggs. YUM.

Anyways, back to my story of when I worked at Winn-Dixie, I went through my vegetarian phase and I fell in love with Stouffer’s Vegetable Lasagna that is sold in the frozen section. When baked it’s absolute perfection! IĀ just want to eat more and more and more until I explode. The breadcrumbs nice and crispy and the inside so cheesy and gooey, ugh, soooo delish!! If I hadn’t just eaten a serving of my own dish, which is equally good, if not better šŸ˜œ I think I would have put this post on pause and run to the grocery store to buy me some! I think I even licked the little package it came in one time, don’t judge me, it was just thatĀ good! At work however, I cooked it in the microwave and it was just as tasty doesn’t measure to being baked though.

So today, I was craving it, like BAD! I decided to try to replicate it and also add my own touch to it, chicken! Not even sure that I know which vegetables are in the Stouffer’s brand but I’m sure you could add just about anything and it would still taste yummy.Ā I made my good ol’ fashion Alfredo sauce recipe that took me ages to perfect. Today it came out insanely good, I guess I had the right motivation.

Alfredo SauceĀ 

  • 1/3 cupĀ butter
  • 1/3 cup flour
  • 1/2 cup grated ParmesanĀ cheese
  • 1/4 tsp salt
  • 1/4 tsp garlic powder
  • 1/4 tsp nutmeg
  • dash of pepper
  • 3 1/4 cups of Milk*

*I used lactose free milk, not that it made much difference considering how much cheese I used. Haha!

LasagnaĀ 

  • 1/2 lb lasagna pasta,Ā cooked
  • 2 thin sliced chicken breast, cooked
  • 1 tbsp chopped garlic
  • 2-3 carrots, shredded
  • 1/2 onion, finely chopped
  • 1/2 head broccoli, chopped
  • 2 handfuls ofĀ spinach
  • 1 1/2 to 2 cups Italian blend cheese, grated*
  • 1 egg
  • 1/2 cup panko
  • 1/2 cup breadcrumbs

*I used Mozzarella, Parmesan and Fontina.

Directions:Ā 

Preheat your oven to 400 degrees.

Cook your pasta to al dente.

In a frying pan, spray coconut oil or your preferred spray oil to coat. Season chicken with salt and pepper and cook until done. Let cool and chop into small pieces, the smaller the better.

In a medium sauce pan over medium heat, meltĀ butter. Ā While the butterĀ is melting mix your dry ingredients. Once butter has melted add your flour mixture and with a whisk or spatula cook flour for aĀ minute or so, this is creating aĀ rouxĀ (link is to a YouTube video I found) whichĀ is the thickening agent for the sauce. Slowly add milk while stirring.

Switch to a wooden spatula, add cheese* and continue to stir until the cheese melts and is smooth. Your sauce will start to thicken. Turn your burner to a very low heat to keep warm and stir occasionally.

*Don’t add too much cheese because the grease will cause your sauce to separate.

In a bowl, mix all of your vegetables, Ā 1/2 cup of cheese, egg and chicken.

In an oven safe baking baking dish (I used a Hefty 9×13 aluminum pan because I was lazy) pour just a little sauce to cover the bottom.

Now start layering! Starting with your noodles, veggie mixture, a little cheese and spoonfuls of sauce and continue the process until completed. Make sure to leave just a little sauce to top the last row of pasta, this is optional. I personally like the crispness of the top noodle with the breadcrumbs but if you don’t like crispy and want moisture, add sauce to the top and cover with breadcrumbs.

Bake for 50 minutes covered. 10 minutes uncovered or if your like me, I turn on the broiler for 1-2 minutes to give it the nice brown color.

Take out of oven let sit for 10 minutes, if you cut into it too soon it will go all over the place. Those 10 minutes make a difference and allow for the dish to set but me being me I couldn’t wait and dug right in, I like my food piping hot!

I’m not a professional at making my food look so fancy in photographs but this is what homemade really looks like! šŸ˜‰

Enjoy!