Fear.

“Fear is not a trivial matter. In many ways, it restricts our lives; it imprisons us.”

So I have been a little M.I.A., been fighting some big ass demons. lol. I just want to talk about something I think that we all face – knowingly or not. Maybe you don’t always feel it but when you do, you don’t know what to do. It causes anxiety, stress, heartache…and you know what it’s a real bitch. Constantly stopping you from what you want to do or pursue and to be honest, I never thought that I would be the person to even own up to this but I will, fear, it has stopped me from living my life to the fullest.

I have a huge fear of letting people down and/or disappointing them.

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Thursday Thoughts 

I stumbled across @lindseycatarino page on Instagram Explore, it was a photo of her at Disney with the castle in the background – so pretty. So I clicked on her profile started to browse. I came across the below photo of her, but it wasn’t her photo that intrigued me this time but rather her caption. It sparked something in me, it was as if suddenly the fire that had been dying out came to life again, burning brighter and hotter than ever.

I can totally relate to the struggle, I think a lot of us can. I realized that there are so many people out there in her exact position, where they feel the pressure of trying to become ‘successful’ but most of the time we become something or someone that we are not. I certainly have found myself in this position many times and I convinced myself that this is the way it’s supposed to be, that these are the cards that were dealt to me. I started to become like every other person, a zombie, living but not living. Just making ends meet and enough to feel ‘satisfied’.

What made Lindsey’s post so interesting to me is that I too, love everything that involves creativity but I settled for a “real” job, accounting (the irony that we both share this). This job is what pays the bills but it is Definitely not my passion, it does not make me 100% happy but it’s a job, a good paying job. I have stability, don’t need to worry whether or not I will have a home next month (God forbid I lose my job or something). I can shop, go out as I please and vacation when I can but reading, writing, baking and taking photos that’s where my heart is. Though it does not provide me with an income it brings much happiness.

You know what the problem is? Society. Its way of making us think we need to be something more. The problem also is that most of us who have the itch to do or pursue something that we love, just don’t know how to. There isn’t anything in books that teaches you this, I mean there are but not how to get the courage to do it!

We get frustrated, don’t know where to start, what to invest in or who to talk to that we simply just give up. We all have done it, we all have  given up on something at one point. Some will keep trying until they succeed or if they fail they walk away.  I don’t want to walk away, I don’t want to give up. Not again. Lindsey was the inspiration that I needed today, looking at her Instagram page and reading her caption made me realize that even if there is no income (or if there is) this is something that will bring much happniess.

So today….

I want you to reflect on your life and your aspirations. Are you where you want to be and are you happy? How do you define success?

I have been reflecting on this all morning, when I first started this blog I didn’t know how to feel about posting things on the internet for the world to judge. It actually kind of scared me and made me feel nervous, gave me slight anxiety. I guess because people can be pretty mean out there, ever read comments on random IG pages? I often wonder what goes thru the mind of those as they leave those ugly and hateful comments. Anyway, we don’t’ need that negativity carrying on…I am happy that I have finally started, it’s not much but it’s a start. In order to grow I needed to dedicate time, a lot of time, sacrifice and spend a little money. I decided to take the semester off from school so that I can focus on pursuing my hobbies and making myself happy.

Lindsey, thank you for inspiring me and giving me that push today!

Happy Thursday!

Sioux City, Iowa

Happy Wanderlust Wednesday!

So know I’ve slacked on my wanderlust Wednesday’s, guilty as charged lol.  Last I mentioned I was traveling to Iowa, ugh weather was terrible. I was hoping for some snow or something but it was foggy, rainy and a little cold. Weather made exploring difficult, not to mention I did not have a car so I was kind of floating around or did whatever I could by foot.

I went to Iowa to visit family that I don’t get to see, ever. They actually had no idea I was coming up! My family originally is from Santa Ana, California but a few of them moved to Sioux City, Iowa. It’s really not as bad as people think, I mean, it’s like any state in the midwest, we just don’t hear about Iowa as much. There are no beaches but they have seasons and hills/mountains! Making the sunsets quite nice actually.
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Thirsty Thursday!

Good morning everyone and Happy Thirsty Thursday! So I’ve been up since about 3am getting ready for my flight to Chicago, a one and a half hour layover and then another 2 hour flight on a mini jet to Sioux City, Iowa.

I know what you’re thinking but we went thru this already! I know that everyone – including myself – think that there is nothing to do in Iowa. I hope my cousins are ready for adventures because they don’t know that Wendy the Explorer is about to show up! Seriously, no one knows. It’s a surprise. I like surprises but I kind of hate them too because more often than not, they just don’t go as planned. So keeping my fingers crossed it goes well.

IIMG_1040.JPG landed about 8:30 am. Exhausted, hungry, cranky and the weather here is gloomy. Way to go Chicago, feed into my dark somber. lol. So here I am at Cubs having a Bloody Mary at 8:30am, it’a 5’o clock somewhere, right?  The real reason I am here is because I want a Chicago dog and everyone here is looking at me like I am crazy asking for a hotdog at this time. They clearly have not eaten cold leftover pizza, live a little!!

ANYWAYS, since I didn’t get my Chicago dog on to my rambling, I named my post Thirsty Thursday for obvious reasons and completely ignoring the fact that it is still morning. I am not talking brunch hours ok, like legit work hours – by the way, to all my co-workers, I hope you are having a fabulous day without me in the office. Although, I know its hard for it to be fabulous without me. =P I kid, I kid. So, I have many favorite drinks but my go to is ALWAYS Heineken Light, if I’m feeling some type of way, whiskey but on a morning can’t go wrong with a Bloody Mary, shoot, I’ll even take straight champagne. I just have to remember not to drink a lot, nothing is as bad as drinking before or on the plane and you have to get up a 100 times to use the bathroom (having flashbacks to my flight back from Washington D.C. in 2015. Good times) yea, I am that person! Thank God I have an aisle seat today!

Anyway, the Bloody Mary was really good here, I asked for spicy and it was the perfect FullSizeRender-5.jpgamount. I am a hard person to please, and this girl at the bar, did an amazing job. Unfortunately, I have to end my post here because I have to chug my drink and run to my gate. I have 20 minutes and I am milking it. LOL. I don’t encourage this but whatever, I am living on the edge. JK. So yea, I hope that on my way back, I can satisfy this craving!

Have a great Thursday everyone!

Cheers!! 🙂

 

 

 

New Orleans, LA

Happy Wanderlust Wednesday!! 🌎

Today, I am going to reflect on my trip to New Orleans…I had an absolute BLAST there! I am not so much of a party person (well sometimes) but I love to have a good time and by good time I mean skipping the lines at the club and going to the local bar/pub. New Orleans was the perfect place for bar hopping! Bourbon street was filled with tons of bars, clubs and people. Such a diverse crowd, everything, hispanics, whites, blacks… drunk, sober, happy, mad but most of all interesting.

I wish I could remember all of the places we went to but to be honest, I think I was drunk the entire weekend. Ha. Don’t judge me. We’ve all had our moments. I went with a co-worker and met up with one of my military friends, we planned for a fun filled three day weekend. We stayed at the Q&C Hotel, which we actually got as a mystery hotel in a bundle that costed us $198 a pop- hotel and flight. Glad we decided to be spontaneous because that mystery hotel turned out to be FANTASTIC. It’s beautiful and in the ideal location, walking distance to a lot of places… What a deal that was!!

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We did a city scavenger hunt where you are dared and ridiculed but that’s what memories are, living in the moment, free and happy and also stepping out of your comfort zone. You buy the deal, download the app, it gives you dares to do and you look like an ass haha but it also teaches you some history.


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One thing I wish I would have done was take pictures of all the good food we ate, everyone knows that gumbo is a must when going to NOLA and so are crawfish and po-boys and oh man, all this thinking about food is making me hungry! Lol. One place I definitely remember is this place -I want to say off bourbon, not sure – it served these huge ass beers. Like literally. The place is even called HUGE ASS BEERS. Lol. It’s a small bar, nothing fancy, good music, good beer… awesome time!!

 

 

We also went down the Mississippi River on The Creole Queen Paddlewheeler which offered the Historical River Cruise. The cruise took us to the Jean Lafitte National Historical Park and the historic Chalmette Battlefield. The Paddlewheeler was pretty cool and they offer drinks but is cash only bar, future note to self. Other than that, kick back, look out at the river and its surroundings and enjoy the cruise!

I definitely want to go back to New Orleans one day, hopefully soon! 

Happy traveling! 😊🌎

The Capilano Suspension Bridge

Happy Wanderlust Wednesday! 🌎 Where have you traveled to? Where is your next trip to?img_0791

Taken at The Capilano Suspension Bridge located in Vancouver, Canada. The Capilano Suspension Bridge is 140 meters long and is 70 meters above the river. It truly is an amazing experience, it was a little scary at first, guess I’m scarred from watching movies where the something happens on a bridge lol. It was hard to get a steady photo on the bridge with so many people walking, it gets shaky and kind of moves side to side, not like a swinging motion or anything. On this day it was foggy, rainy and cold but I wouldn’t change the experience for anything!! ☺️

I will be traveling to Iowa next week to visit some family. I know, Iowa is not a place you hear people traveling to very often but my family moved there years ago from California, not really sure why but they did. My cousin texted me in the morning and said “I woke up and it was -7, don’t forget to pack a sweater”. Ummm.. a sweater?! I’m from Florida, I need long johns, beanies, gloves, like ten jackets and if I could layer shoes, I would layer at least 4 pairs.  I am going to FREEZE!!

Anyway, Happy Wanderlust Wednesday and continue to wander!