“I’ve forgotten all the reasons I loved you, ’till someone tells me that you rang. The memories are hazy now. I don’t recall at all. There’s nothing. There’s nothing there, just me. And I don’t understand why.” ~Phil Collins I’ve forgotten so many things over the course of my 41 years of life on this […]
“I am not fully healed, I am not wise, I am still on my way. What matters is that I am moving forward.” – yung pueblo
They tell you to be brave and strong; To walk with confidence and with your head held high;They tell you be fierce and kick ass;To be smart and powerful;Yet gentle and elegant. They tell you to smash goals and “hang in there!”; To wear this smile with pride and don’t let it slip;
What they don’t tell you…
Is to simply be…
Exactly as you are.
Q.“Hey are you okay?” A. “Umn.. Yeah I am fine!” What a perfect lie! How often do you use this as an excuse? Moreover, what does happiness mean to you? More money? Success? A bungalow? Expensive car? Company of your friends or loved ones? Good food? A nice dress? A kind deed? Your boyfriend/girlfriend telling […]
I stumbled across @lindseycatarino page on Instagram Explore, it was a photo of her at Disney with the castle in the background – so pretty. So I clicked on her profile started to browse. I came across the below photo of her, but it wasn’t her photo that intrigued me this time but rather her caption. It sparked something in me, it was as if suddenly the fire that had been dying out came to life again, burning brighter and hotter than ever.
I can totally relate to the struggle, I think a lot of us can. I realized that there are so many people out there in her exact position, where they feel the pressure of trying to become ‘successful’ but most of the time we become something or someone that we are not. I certainly have found myself in this position many times and I convinced myself that this is the way it’s supposed to be, that these are the cards that were dealt to me. I started to become like every other person, a zombie, living but not living. Just making ends meet and enough to feel ‘satisfied’.
What made Lindsey’s post so interesting to me is that I too, love everything that involves creativity but I settled for a “real” job, accounting (the irony that we both share this). This job is what pays the bills but it is Definitely not my passion, it does not make me 100% happy but it’s a job, a good paying job. I have stability, don’t need to worry whether or not I will have a home next month (God forbid I lose my job or something). I can shop, go out as I please and vacation when I can but reading, writing, baking and taking photos that’s where my heart is. Though it does not provide me with an income it brings much happiness.
You know what the problem is? Society. Its way of making us think we need to be something more. The problem also is that most of us who have the itch to do or pursue something that we love, just don’t know how to. There isn’t anything in books that teaches you this, I mean there are but not how to get the courage to do it!
We get frustrated, don’t know where to start, what to invest in or who to talk to that we simply just give up. We all have done it, we all have given up on something at one point. Some will keep trying until they succeed or if they fail they walk away. I don’t want to walk away, I don’t want to give up. Not again. Lindsey was the inspiration that I needed today, looking at her Instagram page and reading her caption made me realize that even if there is no income (or if there is) this is something that will bring much happniess.
I want you to reflect on your life and your aspirations. Are you where you want to be and are you happy? How do you define success?
I have been reflecting on this all morning, when I first started this blog I didn’t know how to feel about posting things on the internet for the world to judge. It actually kind of scared me and made me feel nervous, gave me slight anxiety. I guess because people can be pretty mean out there, ever read comments on random IG pages? I often wonder what goes thru the mind of those as they leave those ugly and hateful comments. Anyway, we don’t’ need that negativity carrying on…I am happy that I have finally started, it’s not much but it’s a start. In order to grow I needed to dedicate time, a lot of time, sacrifice and spend a little money. I decided to take the semester off from school so that I can focus on pursuing my hobbies and making myself happy.
Lindsey, thank you for inspiring me and giving me that push today!
Good morning everyone and Happy Thirsty Thursday! So I’ve been up since about 3am getting ready for my flight to Chicago, a one and a half hour layover and then another 2 hour flight on a mini jet to Sioux City, Iowa.
I know what you’re thinking but we went thru this already! I know that everyone – including myself – think that there is nothing to do in Iowa. I hope my cousins are ready for adventures because they don’t know that Wendy the Explorer is about to show up! Seriously, no one knows. It’s a surprise. I like surprises but I kind of hate them too because more often than not, they just don’t go as planned. So keeping my fingers crossed it goes well.
I landed about 8:30 am. Exhausted, hungry, cranky and the weather here is gloomy. Way to go Chicago, feed into my dark somber. lol. So here I am at Cubs having a Bloody Mary at 8:30am, it’a 5’o clock somewhere, right? The real reason I am here is because I want a Chicago dog and everyone here is looking at me like I am crazy asking for a hotdog at this time. They clearly have not eaten cold leftover pizza, live a little!!
ANYWAYS, since I didn’t get my Chicago dog on to my rambling, I named my post Thirsty Thursday for obvious reasons and completely ignoring the fact that it is still morning. I am not talking brunch hours ok, like legit work hours – by the way, to all my co-workers, I hope you are having a fabulous day without me in the office. Although, I know its hard for it to be fabulous without me. =P I kid, I kid. So, I have many favorite drinks but my go to is ALWAYS Heineken Light, if I’m feeling some type of way, whiskey but on a morning can’t go wrong with a Bloody Mary, shoot, I’ll even take straight champagne. I just have to remember not to drink a lot, nothing is as bad as drinking before or on the plane and you have to get up a 100 times to use the bathroom (having flashbacks to my flight back from Washington D.C. in 2015. Good times) yea, I am that person! Thank God I have an aisle seat today!
Anyway, the Bloody Mary was really good here, I asked for spicy and it was the perfect amount. I am a hard person to please, and this girl at the bar, did an amazing job. Unfortunately, I have to end my post here because I have to chug my drink and run to my gate. I have 20 minutes and I am milking it. LOL. I don’t encourage this but whatever, I am living on the edge. JK. So yea, I hope that on my way back, I can satisfy this craving!
Have a great Thursday everyone!
Despite coming back around Christmastime, I took my first look at the photos and videos just yesterday. On my seventh trip to the city, I’m just about over taking photos of yellow taxis and Times Square – but with a NY virgin in tow, we were sure to end up with at least a few…
I am in the middle of heaps of transition: planning and packing and laundering and good willing and Craigslisting. In the clearance section of a Target aisle, I discovered that my nostrils have become desperately attached to the scent of patchouli; so I’ve decided to trust my olfactory nerves, and scored a $6 bottle of the […]